before you adopt, educate yourself!!

NOTE FROM AUTHOR:

Unethical practices and adoption scams do not only happen to adoptive parents. Expectant mothers, birth parents, adoptees and adoption professionals are also at risk. The key to an ethical and positive adoption journey is to educate yourself, know who you are working with and thoroughly research your options and the laws. In order for a con to be successful, often times the con will hide under the cloak of legitimate professionals. Or simply not hide at all.

Ethics in adoption is a MUST!

Education is the KEY!

I RECOMMEND THIS for anyone planning to adopt. Please do NOT trust someone without researching. I would not advise using a facilitator without a lawyer (you trust and researched).

I know sometimes in our heart to love and help children

we can make emotional decisions. PLEASE educate yourself. Its possible you can save yourself from a disastrous

outcome if you invest the time.

Please visit this site if you plan to adopt.

life breaks and falls apart

"...but we know these are

places

where Grace is.

soon to be

So Amazing........."

i find these lyrics so comforting,

with my frozen emotions

unthawing

melting into pools

of utter raw emotion

breaking

falling

shattering before me....

....i lay before the Throne broken

"when anything that is shattered is laid before the Lord,

just watch and see

it will not be.............

unredeemed. "

this worship,

full of passion,

Spirit and promise

wraps its arms around me

i. miss. my. sunshine. girl.

in a way full of nothing but vengeance, judgement, lies

and completely packaged with manipulation for a bow-

she was taken from me, from us

yes literally removed by force

by someone with no authority

someone who misused their position

unfortunately selfishness doesn't allow us to see clearly

and emotional desperation spins ones reasoning outta this hemisphere

there are others who witnessed this slow mo drive by

in disbelief-

it all jumped off the sanity bridge on july 30th

very late in the evening with agenda

arriving in the morning with intimidation

continuing the emotional tilt a whirl of injustice to as i breathe now.

this story, HER story is very unfortunate at the moment

this is what happens when self righteousness, pride

and nothing more than pure jealousy

becomes someone.

it is a VERY ugly becoming

and they even want to tattoo God's name on it.

for the sake of all things True,

put YOUR own name on it!!

i will not bow, i put up boundries

and that is really the problem

fallen man you are not God!

God does not intimidate,lie or manipulate

NOTHING goes unseen before Him

and these ashes He will restore

and be used for good

this is not where my destiny is

this situation can't keep me here!

although the intention was selfish

to see me broken for not bowing

little did you know this will actually strengthen me

and

i will ONLY bow to Him

for such a time as this.

life might be breaking and falling apart

"...but we know these are

places

where Grace is.

soon to be

So Amazing.........

They may be unfulfilled, they may be unrestored

But you never know the miracles the Father has in store

just watch and see it will not be

unredeemed."

encouragement

as i was reading this morning these words strengthened me.

God is my shield,

saving those whose hearts are true and right.

there are people who think up evil

and plan trouble

and tell lies

they dig a hole to trap others

but they will fall into it themselves

they will get themselves into trouble

the violence they cause will hurt only themselves.

i praise the lord because He does what is right.

I sing praises to the Lord Most High

-psalm 7:10, 14-17

isn't that powerful and encouraging!!

God just keeps me in awe of His beauty!

i know some of you may not understand or know the situation at hand

and it may be even more difficult to not get caught up in gossip

yet if you are even somewhat aware or if you really know me

you must realize

i will not respond to hatred with hatred, nor gossip with gossip,

or fear and intimidation the same.

these characteristics are not what i aspire too.

i have nothing to hide-

the truth is what it is

i will respond only in trusting My Shield

--- to reveal the truth at the right time, and for the right reasons.

the WHOLE truth

standing before a judge, raising my right hand

i swore to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth

unfortunately for some, the whole truth may have very devastating consequences.

i will not cover anyone's lies or manipulation.

God is a JUST JUDGE.

He see's all, there is nothing kept from Him!

you can try all you want to paint that judgmental picture with all your self righteous religion

yet the WHOLE truth, is what it is

IN TRUTH there is freedom!!!

NOT fear!

I am not afraid.

unfortunately when one operates in the native language of LIES,

FEAR is your best friend.

yes then, selfish one, you might very well be very afraid of the consequences.

despite all my hurt and even anger, i pray for you,

yes you, selfish one, may you not get what you truly deserve,

because that judgement is very harsh.

my prayer is for Truth and Freedom

I know deep down you are afraid of Freedom

maybe, just maybe you will be so MOVED

and your eyes will begin to see clearly again-

so as to truly comprehend your selfishness

and may the darkness be exposed!

hopefully if or when you can find the Light

and clarity,

your whole life will be rearranged for the better.

i put Love and Grace on the table, you refused them.

i did not force this issue, your selfishness did.

i will put my trust in The Truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

my little butterfly

she flies.

the girl i love

i've been one busy mama, juggling alot of tough issues with the adoption(s), and not to mention the girl has gots lots of enerG! i want to share the struggles, emotions and her stories with you. she is my sunshine girl!

since the moment we decided to adopt, we have been bombarded with many low blow hits of disctraction,family illness, financial struggle and the truth of who you can trust and call friend. i have been growing sooooo much through the very challenging moments. i want to show you my heart, its brokenness and its joys, yet i have discovered that there are those lurking who have tried to take my most cherished freedom (of expression) and use it to judge me. it has caused me to be guarded for awhile, yet dont ever take my soft spokenness or silence for weakeness......i'm a very stubborn Child of the Freedom Giver.......so go ahead make my day- i will NOT be silent long! the Truth sets me free darlin!! it might appear like i'm getting no where, but appearances are deceiving......those are just circumstances that only make me stronger!!

one of the most heartwrenching news was that our other daughter we were planning to adopt, will not after all be ours. months have passed and i of course i feel extremely selfish as i say this.... i do not want to "replace" her.

so at this moment though the future of our family is unknown... i continually draw near to my one trusted Source of Strength while the current five of us continue to grow in LOVE and unity! together we are sunshine on a rainy day!!!